A Hungover Aggie

I got drunk on Christmas Eve. Half a bottle of Smirnoff..........I think this is how you spell it. I did go out to Sonic to get my folks a bite to eat.....I've never just taken a $20, for I always take my wallet with my credit cards. Their food alone was 18 and change. No money left for me, so I just said "fuck it" and took them their food. They asked me if I was hungry or where my food was but I told them I wasn't hungry. I lied! I didn't want to tell them I was hurting inside, and that my appetite had escaped me.

I kept drinking and eventually made my way to the bathroom. I lied down for I knew I'd throw up. I did or didnt........I fell asleep in the fetal position on the bathroom floor. My old man thought me for dead when I didnt answer the door. I was in a nice slumber. He eventually made his away aroung the house to the outside window that leads into the bathroom. He opened it to only notice that his eldest was sound asleep with nothing more than a slight shiver from time to time.

I awoke, and I felt great. It was 2 in the morning and thought it best to get the hell out of here (I dont like staying over at anyone's house, even Dads). I got out to only meet my stepmom. She asked if I was okay. I said yes and grabbed my bag that has my handgun and got the hell out of there. I wasn't drunk by then. I was wide awake, alert with no sign of discomfort or pain. I threw my gun bag, my wallet, and bottle water in the bed. I drove to moms.

I went to bed......I woke to vomitting stomach acid more than anything. I missed Christmas Mass. Does it matter? Countless years of devotion to that.......does it really matter? Really? Come on? Anyhow, mom came back and told me to move to another bedroom so our family could the use the one I was using to puke my brains out. I moved..........6 hours later I was good to eat.

I got up and pigged out. I was a bit sore, I must admit. Tea and food never tasted so good. I eventually drank lots of water. I feel great...........now!

I missed my family meal which I always enjoy. Mom bought me two gifts and I told her to go ahead and save her money next time. I always tell her that but she doesnt mind. I think I offended her........I'm a prick even to the woman who bore me. I love her though. I mean,,,,,,it means more to me that she listen to me and sit and dine with me than to buy me gifts that she knows I wont like or care for, muchless use. I'll make up for it this weekend when I go back.

In fact, one of my goals for 08 is not losing weight or make more money.......I want to be a better person. 2007 was painful.......I dont want it to hold me down.

Night