666

There I was on my way back from dropping off my co-worker. I had to drop her off at the car rental place b/c her car has a screwed up transmission. She lives in the next major town just west of me which is only 15 minutes away. No, I dont live in Dallas!

So there I was checking my phone; I had it open. No new messages.......I was expecting one from Blo. I hadn't heard from her in a while. For some odd reason, I was reaching around to grab at things: the wheel, the radio, the A/C, the cup holder. Mind you, I still had the phone open in my hand which is highly unusual. Those Razors are easy to drop so I dont push my luck. Besides, I dont pay insurance on it.

I happened to be thinking among all this commotion how cold I've become. I've become indiffernt lately to life. I thought about going to the chapel and make my peace or maybe ask for help. Just as I was about to lose myself in all this shuffling around, I noticed a red light ahead. So I applied break and stopped behind the car in front of me, and to my astonishment I took a second look at my open handheld and there were the numbers..........666.

I was a bit set back (nothing new). I was there messing around and within 5-10 seconds I went from a blank, no message screen to a 666 dial up. I knew this was no coincidence. Nothing is.....even if I'm indifferent or not. Maybe its not wise to flee from my warm openess to the things that are naturally good. Life........never show indifference to this for it is not ours.

I hate knowing this b/c its true. The truth is what it is whether it pisses me off or not! The thought of recent lost ones passing away has scathed me little. I'm almost to the point of smirking, "get over it folks, its part of life." Those words resound in my head. It is a part of life, but must I be so cruel and callous toward it. Should I not show remorse and sympathy to the ones who were much closer? I should. Life is a beautiful thing regardless of how I feel or have undergone.

The "plan" comes to mind.